Ugh... my H just texted to see if I could take the kids to their activities because he has something he needs to do. I told him "No" that I already have plans and that I was going right after work. He texted back a while later that he "will deal" and "make it work" with a smiley face. Gawd I hate that smiley face!!!!! Who are you trying to kid? Of course, now my brain is going a million miles an hour wondering what his plans are. Arghhh!!! I really, really hate this. I could ask him but that is not DBing and he would probably just lie to me anyway if it is something he thinks I might get upset about. How do people do this? Not drive themselves crazy with the "what if" questions? How do you come to terms with the realization that the person you loved the most who you thought loved you back is nothing but an illusion... a stranger. I feel like I do not know him AT ALL.
