You can always have that flicker of hope and you are right, you still need to prepare for the worse...but let's hope it doesn't come to that.
It is difficult when you think back and see just how far you have come and now, this type of thing happens. But, you need to remember, it's not you, but her. You didn't break her and she is the only one that can fix herself. You didn't cause this situation. Before you loved her, you were friends and that's where you need to go back to. Think about the man you were before you met her. You were single and not a couple and there is nothing wrong in doing things for yourself now and leaving her to herself to figure things out.
Friendship is the first step. Take it minute by minute, hour by hour and then day by day. It will get easier in time.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
