Just keep swimming, I think I can, I think I can

[marina7]

Journaling,

Nothing much in this end.

It's crazy how our children system have failed our kids.

In therapy today I cried my eyes out and was just
shaking my head. Over and over again how GAL
Said s9 is being over dramatic, and GAL feels he lying
My therapist said what is your mom gut telling you.
I replied W did, W at the end before BD eyes would change
Black literally shark eyes and gripped me from my throat
And another time drag me. So yes I believe s9. As he said
It, I just stood in shock because I went back to those days
As s9 explained I visualize W doing it.

W has controlling ways I think we all do mines where
More of W staying home more and becoming more of a mom
I realized I can't make W be a mom. I have let go of that I know
W would never love trio's like I do. I excepted it.

But I would have never thought W would have done this.
Not to a child.
My therapist said you keep being your kids voice.
You keep protecting them. You keep fighting
She feels Gal is using bullying.

Unfortunately therapist said I have worse cases
Where daughters get abuse by dads and they still
Have to go back to house.

I am st all how Mess up and F***? Up the system is.
I just don't understand And I am at all.
I am going to do whatever it takes it won't matter if
S9 tells me mommy I am scared please don't send me
I won't I will go to jail but I won't I know W is going through something
Dark. And we can't be her punching bag.

Just keep praying as I am moving earth and whatever I have to do