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D now appears to be just a matter of time, and W seems to be getting meaner and colder by the week.


This is actually fairly normal. I think they do it hoping that we will treat them the same thus justifying their desire to D. So your response should be to take the high road and not let her drag you down to her level. Conduct yourself with dignity and respect at all times.

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I'm fairly certain I won't be getting a second chance.


Absolutely no way to know that. I have a friend whose wife went rogue and told him there was zero chance they would get back together, ever. They sold their home and business and split the proceeds and she moved in with OM. They did not talk at all for 2 years. Then she started reaching out, then they had coffee, then dating, and now they are back together and happier than ever. That all took place several years ago and they are still together. Will you get back together in a week? No. A month? Highly doubtful. A year? Iffy. Ever? I would never go that far.

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Has been half a year since I felt loved in a way that meant something. I know I'm supposed to love myself, but that doesn't seem to be happening. Hugs from friends and family doesn't quite cut it.

I could use any encouragement people might be able to spare.


Very sorry you are going through this but most of us here can 100% relate to what you are saying. It's a terrible feeling to feel unloved. You are loved, even by your W even though she would never admit it. Sure she may not be "in love" with you but she still loves you. This is tearing her apart even though she'll never show it. Just take life a day at a time, it'll get getter day by day, week by week, month by month until you'll be back to your old self again and looking at all of this like some strange nightmare you had.

I can tell you this because... I lived it. That's the benefit of this forum, you're talking to people that are walking or have walked in your shoes.


Me: 60 w/ S18, D24, D27

M: 21 years; BD: 06-14-12; S: 09-10-12; D final: 03-17-14; XW:57