A new mindset for Burned. This is thread 7.

[burned]

At times I feel like she's intentionally roping me back in, in this weird sort of way that I can't quite put my finger on. But maybe that's just me projecting. In my mind she's a monster who destroyed the life we built together, for no particular reason except her own happiness. Was she really that miserable with me? Was I really that blind? Then I realize that she's really not roping me back in. I really mean nothing to her after everything I've done for her. I'm a nuisance that is getting in between her and her dreams. If only I'd help her with the D paperwork, SHE could finally be free.

Sorry to disappoint. I'll keep trying but I don't really feel like I've made much progress since August. I still blame all of my problems on everyone else. There's a long road ahead of me.