Feeling lost, scared and wanting to fix this. Pt 2

[Turbine]

AniotherStander, thanks. MWD brings up stuff and it is brought up here all the time. Some of it is easier to do than others. So often I feel to close to this to be objective. So difficult to not accept all the blame. Kicking myself for not paying attention to her, the MR, all of it.

Yeah, I feel overwhelmed. Dealing with my sister and her drama. Thanks Mom for having me be trustee for her SNT. My sister is all me, me, me. I want. I need. Money doesn't grow on trees. Our Mom made a mistake by taking care of her baby and catering to her. Now we (our aunt, mom's sister, and me) are left with the monster.

W feels overlooked in my parent's estate. W took good care and helped both of them when they were really sick at the end. Does that contribute to how I feel? Absolutely. Denying that would be stupid. Some of my inheritance has been spent on W. Some to cover bills. Some on me. Some on us. Us, like a trip to the Philippines. W didn't seem happy we did that after the fact. Maybe I ruined her chance to show off to her baby sister. That SiL is divorced. Getting advice from her? IDK.

Anyway. Church tonight. Going to meet one of the guys I've known a long time and grab a bite to eat. Little GAL activity.