Staying up late and watching the election returns. Too much time alone, and looked at our phone records. 2 longs conversations from a number I didn't recognize. Nope. Not an OW. The number is registered to a Family Law Attorney. WTF!!! Not even out barely a month. Yikes. I feel like I need to vomit. I thought I was doing well. Really Well. I'm in shock, I think. I had fleeting thoughts of contacting my own attorney just to shop around "just in case", but I thought I had time. I'm a bit of a mess. Not sure how well I'll sleep tonight.
I want to text him "have you ever contacted an attorney?". Just to see what he says. Maybe wait a few days. I know I shouldn't, and should contact my own attorney, but I don't know if I have the strength to avoid it. HE'S the one that said we can avoid attorney's if it came to that and just use a mediator. He spoke with them yesterday. Ugh. I hate this! It really [censored].
