Thanks TF & Kiwi. My feeling is starting to fade. I did go for a walk earlier which helped a bit. Then I spent some time with my S10 and gave him a ton of hugs which thankfully he still really wants. He was a bit worked up about the Remembrance Day ceremony on Sunday. His dad always attends and has told my S10 he is going. S10 came to me in tears as he remembers seeing “soldiers on the roof” the last time and is genuinely scared something bad is going to happen. I helped him work through his anxiety and he decided that maybe he can go. Funny...he used the exact same phrase I did...”worried that something bad is going to happen.” Somehow working his fears out with him helped me too. I also had something to eat as I realized I hadn’t eaten in awhile. So...in a much better place than I was a couple of hours ago. I may also be nervous about my twin sister flying home this evening. She is such a huge support to me and a big part of my life. One of my biggest fear in life is losing her. Both of us want to be the first to go so we don’t have to be in this world without the other one. Not sure what I would do if something happened to her. We’ve been best friends since before we were born...lol. In fact, we started out as the same person. That’s so weird to think about, isn’t it? Clearly I am now rambling. Thank-you for the support everyone. Much love to you all!
