LOL... thanks TF. Pool has been one of my biggest escapes. I have known many of those people for years. Most do not know my H. Next week I have a five-day tournament to take my mind off of things. Still really struggling today. I can’t shake this feeling that something bad is about to happen. My stomach has been unsettled all day and it feels like it is more than just my SD telling em about the D conversation she had with my H. It feels like it is something more. I haven’t felt this way since this whole thing started. If I had any anti-anxiety meds, I would definitely take them right now. I feel close to tears again which is really bugging me too. Gosh I hate this. I have given everything to this man and he has given nothing back. Why in the world do I even want to be around him? It is crazy to me. How do I get my heart to catch up with my brain?
