Stay strong! You are on the correct path, despite any momentary struggles.
Think about your W's silence and lack of contact as a gift. I really feel that continued contact and mixed messages, and all the stuff that so many posters on here are experiencing, really delays the detachment process. For whatever reason it may be (and you'll likely never know) she is giving you the gift of time and space to heal, to take stock of yourself and your values, and to recalibrate your life. Of course you are going to have thoughts and momentary longings for the past happy days, that's just normal. The key is to hold them gently, examine them without clinging to them, and then letting them go. Don't get caught up in mind-reading, don't give her that space in your head. Turn the focus back to the present, to the moment, and to you and your goals.
I am now going on 3 months without so much as speaking with my W, so I get it. I'll sometimes read sitches on here and wish that I had more contact like them, but ultimately that is a) beyond my control and b) probably harmful for detachment. It is what it is, but it is our responsibility to make the best of it.
W 34 Me 42 Married 7 years together 8 0 kids 1 beloved dog BD 4/6/2018 I moved out 4/7/2018 I moved back in alone 8/05/2018 I file 3/06/2019 D official 5/7/2019
