you're in "poor me" mode. Snap out of it! You're living through her. You're competing with her. You're letting her decide when you're happy and when you're sad. You're deep in the games, she plays them, you play them, and then you both look at each other down the barrel of the gun.
You're going to have to toughen up if you want to save your MR. You need to get yourself right for your kids. But you have to start acting from your own value system instead of getting caught up in all these little games and fights. It's not helping you or your sitch or your kids. You think they can't tell what is going on?
H 34 W 29 BD 3/12/18 Divorce Busted Spring 19
It is not things that bother us, but the stories we tell ourselves about things.