Thanks. The key word is patience. I have looked back at so many events between us (especially lately) and told myself the outcome would have been better if I would just have waited. I have to tell myself this over and over again. I love her dearly and want to help her. It is so hard when that person becomes a monster. I will be honest, it does drive me away from time to time. I think to myself I am at the peak of my earning capacity, am in shape, have plenty of prospects, why the hell don't I move on instead of waiting (possibly years) for this to turn around. I have to be patient.
I have a divorce playbook that has my entire case I built around it. I formed it early on in the process and almost threw it away when we initially reconciled. Something told me to keep it. I have been adding things from time to time and feel guilty continuing to build a case while trying to save the marriage. I just don't want to get caught off guard should the worst happen. I hate opening it but feel it is necessary at times.
