Journaling

I have spent more time with H this week than any other week that I can remember. Last night when I came in he was here. He had spent the day with the girls and was watching them until I got home. He stayed until 7:30 (when he had to go to play football) and then was back again at 8:15 this morning to take us all to netball. Then we watched netball, I left the girls with him whilst I went shopping for last minute party things, we had D8's birthday party, and then went around to his mums for fireworks and present opening. The girls are with him tonight (I've just been dropped off). He is picking me up tomorrow to go to D12's football game and then he is spending the night here so he will be here Monday morning to open presents with D8. This will be the first night since he MO that he will be staying here with me in the house. Monday night we are all going out to dinner for D8's family birthday meal.

D8 had a swimming party and H was present for all of it. He was taking videos on his phone and shouting encouragement from the side of the pool. He was talking to other parents. He was ENJOYING himself. He wasn't even there for D8's birthday party last year (3 weeks after BD). I phoned him twice before the party to remind him to call her and got nothing. I sent him a video of D8 blowing out the candles and got nothing. We opened presents without him that night. This year he was acting like dad of the year.

H continues to act strange. He is super nice to me and then when I disappoint him, he turns. When I said I wasn't going to his mums after D8's birthday, he said I was being unfair to his mum and then told D8 that they would be opening her presents at his mums (i.e. without me). He seemed to be under the impression I was going out as he said he would take our dog as well so she wouldn't be on her own for the evening. He seemed surprised when I said I wasn't going out.

He now makes a big show of telling me things that he has done. Except of course, the things he does that he does not want me to know about - but even this I think is more him being secretive than actually having secrets. I don't know how he fits OW in. He has been with us pretty much every day for over a week.

My life is very strange. If it were not for the fact that we do not share a bed (or a roof) I would swear we were still together.


W40 (me), H40
M14, Together 16
D12, D9

BD Oct 17
Moved out Mar 18