Thanks everyone for all your comments and advise . I am going to counselling and will be continuing for a long time. I have not used since she left Cold turkey as they say is the only way in my opinion. On the OM - I am 100% positive that is not the case in my situation- I know most are not going to believe it but really that is not the issue here. I'm also reading several anger management books an i have read the 5 love languages also. and your right BD that is her last resort so I'm going to keep reading and moving forward myself and become that man she fell in love with . Letting her go will be the hardest thing I've ever done but I understand that is the only way and since I do love her and am in love with her I only want her to be happy - I just can't let my anger hurt her or my family any longer.
