What do I do now with you?

[optimist]

Well, I finally got the computer fixed and can post an update.

Things had been calm in the home front. H continues to spend most of his time home and we even went all together on a trip to NYC just for fun. We enjoyed it, though H seemed a bit distant and distracted. It may have been my imagination though. He has spent a lot of time with us in any case...

Anyway, life had been uneventful, which is good. I kept working on my trust issue... without much help from H, I might add. He calls me a lot every day and broadcasts his every move... but still does not let me into his office and has that woman working for him. The accounts stay the same, also. I even saw she has started a travel agency called "P R Travel" (P is her last name's initial and R my H's).

I have not approached any touchy subjects and have been upbeat and loving... even when he makes occasional sarcastic comments. Our daughter is going to visit my parents for a month in July and I had planned to talk to him then, and use the month alone as a trial to see if we can reconnect or not.

But today, I picked up the mail and automatically opened it all (as usual: he never opens mail. If it were for him, we'd be late on every payment).

There was the usual junk, and in what I thought was yet another credit card offer I found a credit card statement I did not know for $12,000 and change. I was flabbergasted and then I noticed. It was actually addressed to H and the whore (joint account) to our home address. I have not read any more... since I actually should not have opened it. I will give it to him when he comes back.

I wish I cared one way or the other...