I'm starting to feel at a safe enough distance now to look more into the alcoholic thing. Or more accurately, as I understand it now, the 'high functioning alcoholic' thing.
Jeez, some of the patterns of behaviour I've read about are things I could have written.
I've been reading a little about denial too. I guess it's no wonder XH would just stonewall me whenever I brought up his alcohol consumption. There was no way he could ever have begun to admit to me (or even just himself) how much there was something wrong with the amount he drank, the way he drank, or the effect it had.
I find it tiring reading about it though, very draining. I can only read a little at a time.
