The past couple of days I have noticed a real shift in myself and perhaps detaching is really starting to take hold. Each day is still up and down like a roller coaster. I have great days filled with happiness, confidence and a bright outlook to the future. I also have some very sad and lonely days mixed in there. It is the sad days that I notice the change and I don't really know how to explain it. The sadness is different somehow. It is not about what WAW is doing to our family or how our relationship has been the last year on both our parts or anything of that nature really. The sad feelings have shifted more to a sad things couldn't have turned out different and sad that it has ended this way but there is a level of acceptance underneath it all now and that "I'm going to be OK" and "I have a lot going for me and this may actually be a great opportunity for me" feeling is constantly there mixed in. I'm not sure if that makes sense reading it from others perspectives but that difference in the sadness feels good, it feels more like a healthy sadness now.
