NGS creeps in I think. We shelved the discussion. Told her that we can talk about it after this week. Though in essence I may have just kicked the can down the road. She said that the time apart has helped her "detangle" and the process needs to continue. She told me that she wants to keep D4 home as much as possible and that me moving in would make D4 spend half the time at W's potential new place and the house.
The only thing I have not told her about my feelings about her are pretty much dead. I have started to act like it, too. I stopped all casual friendly talk. I cut the conversation as short as I can. I barely acknowledge her presence unless D4 is involved.
God, I'm so tired of this. I keep praying for a happy end to this but it keeps happening. I keep asking "When does it end?" when there is none in sight. I keep praying that things turn around once this year is over but now I'm looking at living this nightmare well into 2019.
I'm rescheduling a consultation with a lawyer. I may not save this MR, but I need to save myself and D4.
