Just keep swimming, I think I can, I think I can

[marina7]

OneArt,

I truly get what ya are saying, and I have now I follow
The court what they said.
Yes I do get upset and hurt when W doesn't want us
With s10 or does home separations.
Example are in W house
Her weekend W will have s10 spend night over at her mom
Or he goes to OW sister house.

I also know I can't control W house. Unfortunately what
Happens there stay there. The trio's do know I am
The safe place they can vent. I get it now it's hard
But I get it. But I also know in this process kids are hurting

To answer your questions.
S10 knows I love them all the same. S10 thought
When am in mommy m home I'll get away with anything
Nope. In fact s10 has been punished. I treat all 3 the same
If s10 disrespect s9 or d10 he gets in trouble. And he has
Told them that's why mom doesn't want ya. Oh trust me
It's been a crazy ride. But I also know they are kids.
I let them figure it out as long they not yelling and
Disrespecting each other.
Is hard trying to be the stable parent but I am doing it.

Does W want kids
So W has emailed me and has told me face to face
To let her live her life with s10 and for me to live
my life with d10 and s9.
W has not petitioned anything in court its only
been me. I been the only one trying to keep kids
Together. And also me get trio's. I miss my son.
I had my son rip from me.
So no W doesn't want d10 and s9. I also think she might
Not want s10, I know W is trying to hurt me. Unfortunately
W knows my weakness. I am a mom who always showed her
Love for her children. W didn't get a reaction of her marrying
OW so now she starting her mess again trying to
Keep s10 away.

I also am not trying to keep trio's from W. Believe it or not
These kids love her. They know mom is sick. Kids have a great
Therapist that is helping them get through this. There therapist
Have help them get through this. They know mom is sick
Not sure what that means to them as I don't ask questions I just
Listen. But I have an idea.

I am working on how to detach from giving her a rise
When she plays this sick game with s10.

All I can do is control me. I am not giving up the fight.
But am giving up the fight for me trying to get more time
For s10 through W. I know I need to stay focus and just
Keep showing everyone I just want us 4 together.
I want my 50% of the time. Is fair as I was not the one
To walk away left all 3 kids and 4 or 5 months later
W took him then I started the court process. Is unfair
But I know God has his bigger plan.