WH texted me to confirm that the D has been officially filed today, I will have to work with my L to move it forward. I am a freaking royal mess today and it hurts still hurts so so bad. I know this was inevitable, I know all of it, that he doesn’t deserve me, that I should let go, he will probably repent in the future. But none of this makes the pain any less. I am hardly able to see what I am typing through the tears. Our baby is not even 1 yet, the person I thought was a companion for life has ended this beautiful commitment we shared in the most undignified way. He didn’t ever tell me he was unhappy with the MR, didn’t ever give me one chance to fix anything. He just broke my heart, my trust and most importantly my children’s family. The kind, loving man I married just disappeared. I am surprised that I still hurt so much after 8 months, after the hell he has already put me thru, that I still have tears left. But the finality of it all just got to me today Oh what I wouldn’t have done to save their family for my babies!! They are so sweet so innocent and this man has ruined it all Today I will cry for all that is lost for all that it could have been. I pray this ordeal ends soon, I need some tiny little break to get through this dark tunnel, some little fireflies to stay with me thru the rest of this dungeon Please pray for me and my kids
