Determined now as I move forward..

[Dtrmned]

Thanks everyone!
Yes. I am still way to attached to "her" outcome. Going to see an IC to help me through this stuff.
Going to fake it until I make it as best I can. I know for a fact I will be alright. I believe she will be as well. I just wanted better for us. For our family. I am pushing forward to a light that will shine on my life soon. I just want to get there. I want it quick but am cautious to make sure I do it right. The final settlement will be one that lasts for years. So long term not short term. W took a nap this morning from around 9 to 2ish. Only reason I know is my daughter texted me asking to pick something up that they were going to get.

I am writing these things down in a journal. I don't ever want to use the information I have. I am wanting an amicable agreement but I don't see her agreeing to anything near what I could do.

I wish I could blink my eyes and this would be done. I am so over this pain and anguish. WHY?

All of the advice was heard. Even though I hate this. I don't want it to happen. And I hate losing my family. There is absolutely NOTHING I can do about it. Period. The ONLY thing I can do is control how I react. Despite what she has said and currently believes, I know I am a good man and a good father. I also know I was a husband that most would only dream of and a happy home for many, many years.

Lastly, just going through this I have learned to treasure each and every moment with my kids. I did before, but it means so much more now.