Yikes BM. If your goal was to push her further away, you have likely succeeded. You just confirmed all the bad stuff she may have been thinking about you and set yourself up for a hostile divorce. Perfectly fine if that is really what you want. But there was a lot of anger in your texts which tells me there is also a lot of hurt. Best not to make any big decisions or send any messages when you are feeling that way.
^^^AMEN^^^
BM, I can't tell you how harmful and destructive what you said was. It was the mother of all backslides. All I can say is drink a cool glass of STFU, and drink it every day. Or every hour, or minute. Whatever it takes to stop yourself. Just go back to square one. Read DR, read Sandi's rules, stop ALL interactions with your W until you can get yourself back under control.
If you really want so bad to finish the D then DO IT. Don't say it, that's just wishy washy passive-aggressive stuff. DO IT.
