Hi Kiwi - I am so sorry you are going through what you are going through. I see parallels in our sitch's as well. I can say that the pain isn't constant anymore, but when it does hit, it is still as intense. I have not yet given up hope.
If your H is anything like mine, MO was as painful for him as it was for me. He said two weeks after MO "I am happier now" and did another (he was at the house more in the two weeks after MO then he was in the two months before). My cleaner told me the other day that the day after H moved out, he was in the MBR and when he came out his eyes were red like he'd been crying/ He was carrying the box of photos that I had taken down the night before (all the photos of us in frames).
