A few weeks ago I was in turmoil thinking about whether to D W. I am not involved with organised religion but I went into a cathedral and asked to speak to someone about my problems as I wanted advice about whether or not to D W. I met a woman who was amazing at listening and said a prayer for me to help guide me to make the right decision.

A few days ago I went back as I wanted to thank the person and say that a few things had started to go my way such as the children are due to be home with me for Christmas. I spotted her right away and she seemed surprised that I went to say thanks. As I was leaving I heard her say an Our Father over the PA system in the cathedral and she said that if anyone needed to talk then she was available to listen.

Our Father, who art in heaven,
hallowed be thy name;
thy kingdom come;
thy will be done;
on earth as it is in heaven.
Give us this day our daily bread.
And forgive us our trespasses,
as we forgive those who trespass against us.
And lead us not into temptation;
but deliver us from evil.
For thine is the kingdom,
the power and the glory,
for ever and ever.
Amen.

I have heard and said the prayer so many times over the years and yet hadn't given it much thought until then but it suddenly made sense to me and it felt incredibly powerful.

I went out last night with a woman who had given me her phone number to get together to talk about a shared interest. It was great and all our other interests etc. are identical too. I've never known someone so perfectly matched for me. She even knew things I didn't know about an obscure passion of mine from an era before she was even born. She is totally gorgeous and inteligent. BUT she's less than half of my age.

We went to a cool bar, then went for a meal, then another cool bar. No chance of romance due to the age difference but we had a great evening and she asked to meet again in a few days. I declined because I'm busy but I also realised that I'd met W before the woman was even born.

Perhaps I was destined to meet her to help show me that there could be another life without W. Who knows. I want to try to save a MR with W but I can't do that alone so just have to try to get on with my life as best I can.