Went into my bathroom to get ready for bed and noticed my H’s electric toothbrush is gone. I am pretty sure it was there last night so he must have taken it today. I don’t know why but for some reason that really hit me hard. I mean, how crazy right, out of everything that has disappeared from our home that I would care the most about his toothbrush. Had a surge of emotions when I saw it wasn’t there. I immediately took everything else of his that was on the bathroom counter and shoved it into a drawer. Now when I look in the bathroom, it definitely looks like only one person uses it. I’m really hating him in this moment... for being such a selfish short-sighted man-child....for doing this to me and to our kids. I keep asking myself why I would want this person in my life - someone who has done nothing but lie to me and leave me alone to take care of everything for the better part of four years. How does he look at himself in the mirror each morning? I know I will eventually get to a place where I accept it but I will never, ever, ever understand it.
