Thanks STH17. You bring up a good point. I guess I was judging. But those were my perceptions and yes, like he said, I did assume the worst intentions. As I was kissing him though, I couldn't let myself be happy or loving because it immediately elicited feelings of confusion and fear (of being hurt/used). And in some ways, yes, it felt like a stranger was kissing me. It just made no sense. And of course, now I feel like he perceived my comments as being critical of him (again). I'm second guessing myself. Maybe I shouldn't have said anything and just ignored it.
