Again... I could have written that [minus the bit about the LinkedIn stalker...but give me some time...lol]. I have that exact same worry - that if I look okay, he will take that as a cue to push ahead with lightening speed. But then I am reminded that not looking okay is not attractive to anyone let alone our H's. Human nature is to want something you aren't sure you can have. Being someone's solid Plan B is what creates and encourages the limbo. I KNOW this but it is so darn hard to practice it when my stomach starts churning every time I see him. When we have a good talk, that feelings goes away but, at the same time, I suspect I go back to being a solid Plan B again. That is the hardest part of this whole sitch - that and it feeling a bit like a game to me which is so not me. There are times when I really feel it - that I will be okay and moving on is a good thing. But then there are other times when I just want to feel his arms around me again. I dread that feeling. And I dread not having it too. I guess that is the definition of limbo, isn't it. Anyway...just wanted to send you a ((hug)). Hang in there.
