Thank-you FS for all your kind words. Not sure I measure up to them on a day-to-day basis but it is what I strive for. Trying to avoid contacting my H as much as possible to let him be after our talk. But man it is hard...something seems to come up every day with the kids or the house. But I am getting better with the business texts, for the most part. Sometimes I will get sucked into a friendly exchange but it is a work in progress. I know I will likely see my H today. The kids have a costume party to go to and he is the costume guy so he will be here getting them ready. Or maybe he will get them ready and then bail before I get home. That is certainly possible. Not sure which I would prefer. Contact hurts and no contact hurts... doesn’t seem to matter. Gosh...I just wish I could press fast forward and see how this story ends so I can just get used to the idea. The recommended and smart thing to do is move on and accept he is not coming back. I feel like I need to take a couple weeks and take a trip or something in order to do that but alas, duty calls. There is no running away when you have kids - unless you are my H, I suppose. He’s been running for months. Anyway...the day awaits. I’m going to make it a good one. Hope you are able to do the same. (((HUGS)))
