I'm sorry that you are dealing with this and it has been a rough one for you. This latest event for you I imagine hurts bad.
So give yourself a day or two (or three or four or however long you need) to feel your emotions. Cry, vent here...I'd give you my phone number if I could, eat ice cream, or whatever. No alcohol or drugs!
And the mountain does get higher and higher, but you know what? As you climb you gain a little bit more of strength and endurance. Keep climbing.
Pray to God to give you and your kids comfort. Pray for peace for your W. I'm praying for you too.
