Feeling lost, scared and wanting to fix this. Pt 2

[AndrewP]

Hey Turbine - I'm up early and noticed your thread at the top of the pile.

I've not read back far but I recognize the song that's playing in the background.

What you and what I and what most of us have gone through / are going through is a huge pile of cr@p.

I too saw the dark places you are talking about and nearly went there. There were 3 very close calls.

No - I didn't "save my marriage" and from the perspective of a couple of years out, that was probably a good thing for me. We're about the same age but still have a lot of life in front of us.

What helped me was that I was able - with effort and help from friends - to see that there was a "farther shore" on the other side of the darkness. It would flicker in and out of sight but once I first saw it, I knew that it was there.

I struggled through the dark times you are in the middle of and have a pretty good life. No new person in it, haven't heard from my ex in a long time - don't want to.

You can get through this. Just like they tell you on an airplane though, take care of yourself first. I'm glad that you have people around you like your pastor and deacon who are doing their best to help you through this as well.