Feeling lost, scared and wanting to fix this. Pt 2

[Turbine]

Feel pretty good right now. Nothing to do with the W. Whole 'nother set of emotions there as everyone can understand and relate to.

So what has my spirits up you wonder. Well let me share, because that is what we are here for. The up, the down, the corkscrew in this roller coaster we are on.

I was assigned a piece of test equipment to make sure it operates to its specifications. Its what I do at my job. So this is a piece that I hadn't seen before, at least this model. I had seen and tested similar equipment but this one was kicking my butt so to speak. Well with a little assist from Tech support the problem was solved. Now the sales guys have a nice new (for us) piece to sell for a nice bit of $$$. That should make the boss/owner happy.

Tomorrow... I have a piece sitting on my bench that is failing. Repairing is not cheap and with what its telling me, probably not going to happen. So bye bye... see ya... on to the next piece. Also a bit of $$$ but hey that is how the game goes.

Helped former neighbor to my parents hang the newly painted patio door. Ya know, putting furniture glides on the bottom of the door was really nice. Allowed us to move the door and not ruin the paint job. There was enough clearance that removing the slides was easy too. That is experience... nice trick I will have to remember for the future. Of course now everyone here knows now too.

FYI, yes the W is on my mind a whole lot. So not detaching all that well. She normally locks her bedroom door. Even before the BD, she would lock our door when we were in the same room. Don't know... maybe cultural. I mean if the door is shut you knock... I mentioned this because I will check the door. Mostly locked. Sometimes not. I used to snoop. I suppose this still is in a way. I don't open the door though. Maybe I should, with 3 dozen roses, a box of chocolate, tickets to a concert for her favorite artist. A suit, new haircut, cologne... the whole nine yards. Get a response... you know, any response is a response. Charge with guns blazing!

Expanding the exercise routine. New sore muscles. YES!!! I am on my way to getting the body of a Norse god. No... not one of the out of shape ones either. More pain to come. If I fail to become someone only a fool would leave, (yes I know there is more than just the body to all of this) then maybe I will have to beat them off with a stick [hammer ( I did say Norse god)].

I obviously want to get to MR 2.0 as H 2.0 with this W. Yes she isn't the same person as when we met, married or who I believe her to be. Well isn't that true for all of us?

So while hanging out at the ER to meet a nurse from the islands might be in the future, that is smoke on the horizon for now. I want who I married. I would very much want to woo her again, show her how special I know her to be. I believe she is, that she is worth the struggle ahead and God brought us together for a reason. I didn't hold up my part as well as I should have. With His help I will get a second chance. I have to be ready though and this time really mean it.

PS. I tried changing to a new brand of deodorant. Apparently that particular one gave me a rash. So still with the old brand.