And yeah, I can not die if I do not have sex. But I also do not want to live a life where if I am capable of having it, I cannot. If something happens to me and I am unable to have sex, then I will have to deal with that, however I deal with it. It's important to me, especially since about 6 months before BD I felt myself maturing in that area.
My LL is affection and physical touch...and I have been lacking both for nearly a year now.
And you're not telling me how to live my life. I do not perceive your viewpoint as judgy or you look down on me for considering it. I just am finding myself questioning a lot lately. What I considered wrong could be right. What could be considered "right" could be interpreted as "nice" or "not a man" or even "wrong".
This whole event is the equivalent of a CAT 5 hurricane leveling an entire town. Rebuilding is going to take a lot of time and dedication. I feel as if I am still picking up the pieces while rebuilding, one brick at a time.
