I look at it as their conscious mind knows that what they are doing is so hurtful that the feelings are repressed very deep and overshadowed by the high in a wayward sitch. My WW would wake up in the middle of the night shaking violently and sweating as these feelings would surface. Also sheds some light into why she is self medicating ala alcohol and drugs.

H-50
W-48
T-19
M -18
S23, S14
BD - 5/9/2018
OM discovered 5/10/2018

In house sep - 8/18/2018
Rope drop 2/15/2019
R'ing since 3/15/2019