I think it’s her subconscious telling her she doesn’t deserve me and a happy family. I think she needs to know she doesn’t have me. I feel better when I don’t think about her... ?
Wow, you give her WAY TOO MUCH BENEFIT OF THE DOUBT. How do you not see that everything she does is to keep you hanging on? What could you possibly have to offer her that she wants you to hang on like that? (And the "She knows how great of a guy I am. She has said I’m the best fuy she knows how admirable all the change is. That I’m completely different. No one as hot as me. Sex great. Date great. Wanted more. Asked how I did it how I learned to be open honest not scared of intimacy. " stuff....wow you really do still believe everything she says.)
Did, I told you last week, your sitch is way too advanced for you to be still making the same mistakes. Putting your hand on her leg? You claim it was without thinking....YEAH RIGHT. I can remember that in the thick of my sitch, every encounter and every interaction was razor sharp at the forefront of my mind. Do not try to tell us that you "didn't think about it" and your hand just magically went to her leg. No way.
M(53), W(54),D(19) M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017 Ring and Piecing since March 2018
