Just keep swimming, I think I can, I think I can

[OneArt]

Marina, I'm sorry you are going through this. I don't really see a point here. I think she just uses these sessions to show her contempt for you.

Some people are just not capable of co-parenting. Perhaps it is time to consider parallel parenting, which might make more sense in your situation.

Again, I'm sorry. I don't like any process that looks like it is just an opportunity for abuse.

[neffer]

You made me cry for a change...

You are getting stronger and stronger M. Keep doing what you are doing. Keep shining bright.

Go for it.

[marina7]

Peacetoday, OneArt

Thank you again to you and everyone here.

This is my first time going through this.
I have dived myself and kids in therapy and family
Divorce groups and single parenting groups and
This forum.

So as ya can see I been doing this for awhile and read
Many other stories for days at a time.

But W is like a whole different monster. And her behavior
Is ridiculous. But one thing that caught my attention was

W was going on and one how ow has a phd and is an executive
Blah blah blah.
Therapist finally said ENOUGH we are not here for what OW does
When your getting married or who Marina have sex with every night.

Yelp therapist said that, but with that being said and as stated not sure
If I did here I been reading physiology books I been myself thinking
Going back to school to be a therapist for kids.

So yes going back. Therapist wanted to get a reaction out of W.
W body language said it all. W went from crossing her legs to uncrossing
To lean forward and right leg bouncing. W didn't like the thought of me
Being with someone.

So once we where done therapist wanted permission to talk with
Personal therapist I sign mine. W in other hand said I need to ask
My lawyer and walk out to make the call. Therapist is like fed up by now.
I could see, therapist said again thank you for cooperating with everything
I smiled and said welcome therapist said also when I said it doesn't matter
Who marina is sleeping with every night or how many women's is because she
Admittedly said I wanted to see W reaction and I did. It is interesting her
Logic.

I said yelp. Thank you again and see you next week. Bye W walks in and W
Says your not going say bye. I just walk bye W cheerful and all see you
Friday.

Me in my head. Woozers.... like wow... this is crazy

As soon I drove off I turn my stereo on to my Christian music
And Mandisa came on Overcomer I was singing so loud.

Staring at a stop sign
Watching people drive by
T mac on the radio
Got so much on your mind
Nothing's really going right
Looking for a ray of hope

Whatever it is you may be going through
I know he's not gonna let it get the best of you

You're an overcomer
Stay in the fight 'til the final round
You're not going under
'Cause God is holding you right now
You might be down for a moment
Feeling like it's hopeless
That's when he reminds you
That you're an overcomer
You're an overcomer

Everybody's been down
Hit the bottom, hit the ground
Ooh, You're not alone
Just take a breath, don't forget
Hang on to his promises
He wants you to know

You're an overcomer
Stay in the fight 'til the final round
You're not going under
'Cause God is holding you right now
You might be down for a moment
Feeling like it's hopeless
That's when he reminds you
That you're an overcomer
You're an overcomer

The same man, the great I am
The one who overcame death
Is living inside of you
So just hold tight, fix your eyes
On the one who holds your life
There's nothing he can't do
He's telling you

You're an overcomer
Stay in the fight 'til the final round
You're not going under
'Cause God is holding you right now
You might be down for a moment
Feeling like it's hopeless
That's when he reminds you
That you're an overcomer
You're an overcomer

You're an overcomer
You're an overcomer

See don't quit, don't give in
You're an overcomer

Don't quit, don't give in
You're an overcomer

Don't quit, don't give in
You're an overcomer

You're an overcomer

I was singing and tears flowing I cried for a good 15min driving and crying
While windows down. This song has been my hope everytime I have a rough
Day. It's been hard.

So again am not sure if many of you ever read the story of King Solomon's

Basically two women claim a child saying he mine he mine. The king
Said enough let's just cut the chil6in half. The one mom I would say
More like me said crying No please No. He would die. She can have him
I love my son that much she can have him. So now you know who the
Real mom is. Because no mom want there child hurt.

So lately I am tired of seeing our kids suffering so I want to call
The GAL and lawyers and say I love my kids so much I am tired of them
Hurting I just want the trio's together. W can keep them with her for them
To go to better school as long they together. And honestly they want
To play house. Let's let them. Play house. Let them get a taste of what life is with
Trios.

Well any input from ya. Or advice.

[neffer]

Hang in there. It´s ok to be tired. Just don´t give up. Today you are in a better place than yesterday. Tomorrow´ll be better. Stand in there and keep your light shining. Trios deserve that. It is for them now...

[DnJ]

As compelling as that idea may be, I do not believe our judicial system has the wisdom of Solomon nor the power.

You most definitely do not want to abandon your kids in any form.

Keep working towards what is right and just, you will get there.

DnJ

[peacetoday]

M

hang in there
stick with the kids
Your W is not fit to parent

If you continue, I would hope to see a shift and all kids together in time
don't give up-
get some rest and find ways to dig deeper for strength-pray, talk, read, exercise,meditate journel

You will get to the other side and the pain you suffer will bring change peace and rewards later
hang on

[marina7]

Journaling,

It's been a rough 2 days.

W been again keeping s10 away
I am scheduled to call W text
W We need time change and only 15min on the phone with s10
M time will stay as we all agreed, and we are not time restrictions
W rant s10 has to shower and eat and do homework
He also has a life. He doesn't even want to go over
Your house
M again I will be talking to s10 and his sibilings

W rants goes on. Who the hell are you
I don't care call who ever the
F**k you call I am tired of this sh*t.

I simply sent GAL and lawyers W text and
Stated I simply can't with W. I am trying my best
To coparent W refuses for us to be part of s10 life.

S10 had a school event yesterday. I and d10 and s9
Where going to s10 school s10 was so excited.
S10 called me said Hi mommy today is event
I said I know we be there. I guess W heard the conversation
3min later my phone rings.
W we not going
M ummm why we are on our way
W because s10 doesn't want you there or s9 or d10
You don't get it. Get out our life.

Wow. I am dumbfounded.

First the freaking Illinois law [censored] on
Protecting kids. It's sad and heartbreaking
That things are not moving fast enough.

I can't imagine what s10 is going through
My monkey brain is wondering how s10
Is being mentally abused. How much longer
can s10 take we are talking about a child.

I am 40 and let me tell you 1 hour with W
I feel like am losing my mind. Is so scary.

I now get it when s9 and d10 say is scary going
To mom house. Is like she is crazy.
Sometimes she just sleeps,
One minute W is Yelling put ya jackets
On and rushing them.

I break for them. How can I protect my kids.

How can I protect them from this monster.
One minute W is like a little girls and the next
Minute is like a evil monster spewing horrible things.

I need lots of prayers. This momma is feeling
Hopeless only God could change this.
I have lost faith in the law.

[OneArt]

Marina, I'm so sorry for this. I'm also going through a difficult time with mine just now. I do think it is the season. I hope it will pass after the new year.

You can protect your kids by being their safe place and letting them know that they are your priority. I'm telling you this, so I can tell it to myself as well. Kids like structure, order, safety, security. . . They like parents who parent and leave them out of the grown up stuff.

Keep staying calm, documenting, and reporting. The court will give great deference to the GAL.

[Gordie]

I cannot fathom your pain

Separation from s10

Praying for you

[marina7]

Thank you Gordie, yeah I ache everyday
Is a pain nobody can ever understand unless
A child been rip from your arms and life.
This forsure has been my hardest battle
I ever have fault.

I believe and know God has his plan.
I just ask God to take it easy on my heart sometimes.

OneArt so sorry for you too.

It's hard. Especially this week
Today I didn't get s10 till Tomorrow
The GAL felt that s10 was to emotional
To be with us... yelp Gal said that.

Again I have lost my faith in the system.
Gal called saying I am more concerned that you and W
Can't manage to get ya Sh*t together.
Wow that hurted but like my lawyer stated
How dare the GAL say that when all you do
is bend backwards for W and her accommodation

I felt like GAL doesn't see anything wrong with W.
It just hurts so bad.

S10 saying he doesn't want to see me or d10 s9
S10 told GAL he doesn't want to visit.
S10 said he doesn't like scouting

I can go on. And as I stated to GAL really
And you can say W has not manipulated our s10

Gal no he telling me the truth I know when a kids are lying.

Wow wow wow...
Is like nobody takes d10 or s9 feeling they been crying for him
Asking why s10 not here today why didn't we pick him up..

I can't talk negative to kids about W I must just say tomorrow hun..

This crap is horrible.
Financially less than 200 bucks in account.
Struggling
Sick
Trying to put roof over our heads.

One thing I remember about meeting
Gal was when we spoke she stated one parent will
Give up financially it becomes to much money.

So I guess I become that parent where I might have to
Say I no longer can afford this.
I don't have family I been on my own since 17.
W has family they are bat sh*t crazy bit they
Stick together when things get bad.
They enjoy chaos. So I know financially I am done.