Hope... I can see how desperate you are right now and I completely understand it. Everything in you wants to fix this...change what has happened...go back in time. But you can’t and the sooner you find a way to come to terms with that and accept it, the better off you will be. DBing is not for him or to win him back, it is for YOU. Reread what people have written to you already and really digest it. You need to come to terms with the idea that he may NOT come back. If you GAL and move forward with your life, he MAY look back and become curious... remember you for the person you were when you met. That MAY happen but it also MAY not. I can tell you one thing for sure though... if you continue to pursue him, the only thing you will do is convince him that he made the right choice to leave. There is nothing you can say or do right now to convince him otherwise. He has been clear about that. You have to find a way to let go...for you. You CAN do this. I know right now you don’t think so... and I know you don’t want to... but it is the only way to get through this.