Just keep swimming, I think I can, I think I can

[marina7]

Journaling,

Well here we are again. Another therapy meeting and nothing.

Once again all my fault , and W brag about OW how they getting married.


Well let's start with this weekend.

W felt it was ok to leave s10, and s9 with OW for 2hr while
W went to mall with D10, due to boys being boys.

My concern is OW doesn't have good track record.
Ow is young and doesn't have kids and oh yeah CPS case
For gripping s9. W Said her lawyer said it was ok.

Well I don't think so first I don't trust OW. Or W
They mentally abuse our kids is sad.

When W told me Sunday I simply ask W didn't you call me
I would have pick up the boys. W yelled crazy because I can.
I just drove away am done with W nonsense

Well I simply emailed GAL and my lawyer I can't with W

So today was therapy with W
W of course is already pist from Sunday.
W guard is up.

So therapist ask how was our weekend. W of course went on
Therapist ask my side I said what I said. And therapist agreed about
W shouldn't have left them without having something written down.
W was defensive and angry.

W, what are you going to do when I marry her because we getting married.
M just nodded and said Congrats
Therapist ok but this about co parenting, you can't even coparent but
You want your girlfriend involved.
W well she not going anywhere, marina needs to know and accept it I am
Marrying OW.
M ok and nodded

W went on her rant.
Therapist ask the question what is keeping us from coparenting
M well let's say trust issues
T ok understand
W still ranting how she can't trust me, but I am an amazing person then said
Marina broke me. I left because I feared for my life. Blah blah.
T ok but can we coparent
M I am trying but how can I when I give w just takes gave her example of
This weekend.
T finally got fed up with W ask W do you ever shut up and listen.
Yelp I see therapist is getting tired of this.

I once again didn't say much. Because W was so focus on her marrying
OW how OW has a phd in physiology and is an executive for a bank.
W went on and on about her and OW.
And yes looking at her phone.

I once again said my peace Therapist ask again and I said do I think we can
Coparent No. Because as you see we coparent differently. I have different views.
How do I even begin to coparent with someone who doesn't give.

I said my peace. We going back next week but I honestly don't see this going anywhere.
W at this moment to focus on life then our kids.

I know I must stay focus on our kids.
As much I want two parents. I also can't force W to be a mom.

W admitted she loves kids differently. W said I don't have love for
Them like Marina does. I can't love them like her.

Which I nodded and said is ok to love them your way.
One minute W cried and one minute upset.

Once again nothing.
I only can pray for patience. And pray for W

And I wish W the best marriage. I wish W the best in life