She told me that forgave me. I did not say the same. I told her I forgave her for the kiss. But I have not forgiven her for the pain and damage is causing to someone she claimed would never hurt. I told her that I made mistakes of pushing you away and not showing affection and it bit me hard and I'm paying the price dearly for it. I told her I learned my lesson and am now dealing with the painful consequences of my actions. I again told her that I want this horrible chapter in my life to be closed.
And as a final stab, she told me that I'm being vindictive because I'm jealous. I told her that is her assumption numerous times before I slipped at the end of the convo that yes, I am jealous. I am jealous and sad and upset that I am facing a painful and lonely single life again.
