Just a quick update because I am exhausted and heading to bed. Had a great time with my sister. Did some shopping... bought shoes...had a nice dinner...played our favourite slot machines. It was nice being away and trying not to think about things. The morning we left was a bit tough. Both my kids were teary because I was leaving on “Daddy’s birthday”...ugh...told them Daddy was happy I was going because he wanted to spend some special time with them. My daughter asked if me and Daddy were “okay”. Somehow not being there for his birthday was a bigger indicator of trouble than the fact he hasn’t really been living here for months?? Anyway... only spent a couple of hours feeling guilty (not mine to have, I know) and then i was able to shake it off.

Today when I arrived home, my H was here. He made a point of telling me all the things he had done with the kids in my absence. We chatted for a couple of minutes and then he said he needed to go because he was feeling quite sick and nauseous. I was briefly irritated because i needed to leave again but he had organized his mom to take care of them for the evening so it was okay. On his way out the door, he asked if I had plans the next night. I thought about it for a few seconds and he laughed and said the he liked that I have to think about it? Pretty sure I didn’t have plans so I told him that and asked why he asked. He said that he was just wondering if I would like to have a glass of wine with him. So...that’s what I am doing tomorrow night. Not sure why he wants to meet. I hope it’s a positive sign but I am going to make a point of ridding myself of any expectations. Wine and conversation is all I am expecting. After he left, my MIL told me that she had tried to send him home earlier because he was feeling really sick but he told her that he wanted to wait until I got home. Again...maybe a positive sign? My MIL seemed to think it was because previously, he has avoided me like the plague.

So...that’s the latest in my sitch. A bit nervous about our wine date tomorrow. Hoping he is not wanting to tell me something I’m not going to want to hear. Guess time will tell...