I remember asking a friend of mine who split up with her partner of 11 years 4 years ago, how long it took before she felt whole again. She said she knew they wouldn't get back together when he moved out but she knew it didn't hurt anymore when he came around 6 months later to pick up the last of his things. She asked him in for coffee, they chatted for a bit, then he took his stuff and left. Basically the same interaction H and I had this morning. She felt nothing.
This is ALMOST how I felt on my trip to see the kids yesterday with H. I almost felt nothing. No anger, no longing. Just mainly wondered what H is doing with his time and whether he already is dating. I wouldn't be surprised, even though we agreed to no dating during the 2 month "trial" separation. He's not wearing his wedding ring so he must not feel married. Well, I think I probably feel this way, or have lack of feeling, because I am filling my life with other things now. I don't think to much about it. Just an observation.
