Dear Kech, we all miss you and are just wanting to make sure you are okay and that the baby is fine. If you have stayed away from the forums wanting to avoid the pain, when you eventually get back look at the resolve you had keeping away from it. We all lean on each other for support here and it is addictive at times, if you are able to stay away it means once you set your mind you can do what you want, same principle applies to DB.
Pain, sorry about the depression, being in this sitch doesnt make it any better, but anybody who got BD will be in a state of depression and despair for at least a few months according to me. I am almost 8 months post BD, I havent forgotten him or stopped loving, I try my best to do it from afar. I am learning to love myself more than I love him because I deserve love and well if he isnt going to give it I need to look after my own self. Give yourself time, talk to friends, keep yourself busy all the time and find what makes you tick, find happiness for yourself, none of our souls should suffer.
(((Blu))), reading about your depression at 5 made me cry today, I just need a little nudge and it could be any random thing. My babies are not with me today, and when I thought what could be going on in my older Ds little mind about this whole sitch it made my insides churn. Argh, of all the people in the world, we had to be stupid enough to have these beautiful children with our crazy wayward spouses. But your honesty and vulnerability shows us that we are all human, we all suffer, make mistakes, pick ourselves up and keep moving towards the end of the tunnel.
Kech, I hope you will drop by soon to let us all know you and baby are doing fine. Hugs
