[bluered]

Today is a terrible day.
I didn’t sleep at all last night. I just kept on re-reading his email over and over again. Trying to decipher what he’s saying. I was so close to calling him just to see how he’s doing because I’m genuinely concerned although I didn’t.

I just kept on thinking well, he’s not calling you. If it was so dire he would. But then again, when you’re in the pit of despair sometimes you just don’t reach out.

I’m worried about him through what he said in his email although he could just be exaggerating so that it seems like he still cares. I haven’t heard from him after my response. He doesn’t have a strong support network out west as he does here. At least to get his mind off of whatever. Me.