Husband cheated, left, trying to DB 6

[Davide]

I also wanted to add a couple of things here. I don't recall how much I shared about my anxiety/depression after BD, but it was very bad. I thought about suicide all the time. I want people to know that it is okay to say that out loud (or write it here). There is a lot of stigma around just admitting that, but I don't think that there should be. I even had all the support systems in place - IC, family, friends, resources, reading here, etc. It was still unbearable and felt hopeless at times. Somehow I got through, one day at a time, and it did slowly get easier. I just forced myself to believe that it would, and it did. I learned to trust my trusted people: I had to surrender my fears and have faith that everyone around me was right. I would be okay eventually. As a result, I have also deepened several relationships around me. My friendships today are QUALITY.

Blu,

At the risk of hijacking this thread, I just want to thank you for that post. Your openness and vulnerability are surely a sign of your great strength. I know that there were times that I needed to hear that very message. It is okay to be hurting and in deep distress when put in these types of situations. You are not alone and you are not the only one hurting like that.