What's more upsetting is that I thought I was making tangible progress. Maybe this time now I should not just say "No expectations" but APPLYING the no expectations rule?
Yes. This.
The sooner you can drop expectations the better off you'll be, no matter what ends up happening. Our expectations are almost always what sets us up for failure.
M(53), W(54),D(19) M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017 Ring and Piecing since March 2018
