Hello zues - yes. Once a month i go through this wave of panic when i am with NG. I find something he said to me or someone that prooves i dont want to bother with a relationship (and jelly pointed out that i am cool with other people saying the same things to me) and then i come on here or write and talk to my friends and complain. I compare him to my ex. I got mad at him for giving me advice on son. I did the opposite on purpose and he was right. He wasnt critiquing me. Just trying ro be helpful. But thats not fair. My ex wasnt around or invested so i didnt have to deal with ex. Only with ex's lack of involvement.
I am surprised that you wrote that you feel it is unnatural to be alone. Looking forward to an update and hope all is well in your life.
Rose - im sorry. I do periodically note the truth in some of my posts. I know that those posts will just get lost to the back of the pages. My son was so difficult - hes adhd, there were thoughts that he could be on spectrum, and had some behavior issues that when i first came on it seemed comparable to say i had twins. I felt like i could still get across my point of having difficulty as a mom, without revealing things that identify who i really am.
I have talked to people off the forums that knew the truth all along back from when i was in newcomers - but even with them i use a fake name and no pics. You never know who is out there. I am a single mom. I want to keep my son as best protected as i could posting publicly. I have heard of some scary stories with a few posters on here.
That being said, i do know today is a different world. People share their lives on you tube and facebook. They create blogs. Why would anyone even be interested in me? Im not any one that stands out. But i do suffer from anxiety. I have talked a lot about that. Be as anonymous as possible makes me less anxious.
