Feeling lost, scared and wanting to fix this. Pt 2

[Turbine]

Thanks for the ((hug)). I really need one about now. Hugs are appreciated. Hugs from my kids, grandkids or in-laws are welcome. If I hug my Mother in law I almost put her in a sleeper hold. She is really short. Poor substitute for hugs from W of course.

Doing much better this morning. Not sure how much of that was related to blood sugar level.

My activities away from home and part of the GAL have been not doing it for me. Trying again today and mixed results. I have to go shopping later to get stuff for the week.

Tuesday the minister wants to visit me at home. Been a long time since that had occurred. Making sure not anything to do with W. Wanting to avoid any resemblance to pressure or ganging up on her. Her actions since leaving the church and dropping the D on me are between her, God and the Church.

I so want her to be more receptive to trying to resolve the MR. Got to come from her though and not sure it will ever. *broken heart*

This is the time we should be working on us as a couple. I know I messed up and didn't. Wasn't exactly getting that feeling from her either though. I pray not to late to reach a solution.