I dropped off the kids on Friday. He asked me how my job search was going. I told him about an upcoming interview. He was supportive (of course he wants me to get a job so he doesn’t have to pay all the bills and probably pay less alimony when he files). He told me he knows it’s hard getting back into the work force and “no matter what, I will support you,” so don’t worry. He’s said this to me before but when he gets frustrated he threatens me financially.
He the. Said “I love you,” which he has not said to me in a long time. The last time he said it to me he also said “but not in that way, as the mother of my kids.” This time he didn’t add that part. I started to get hopeful and then he asked what I was doing this weekend. I said just hanging out with friends. He the. Said “That’s too bad, you could have gone camping with me and the kids.” That made me mad. If he had really wanted me to go he would have asked me in advance. I felt like he only said that because I had plans but he didn’t know what the plans were. If I told him I was just sitting on the couch doing nothing all weekend he probably would not have invited me.
The next morning I left my house and he immediately called me and said he needed to come by for a few camping items. I told him I wouldn’t be home but go ahead. Based on my home alarm app, he never came. He was also on Instagram all morning so i don’t know if they ever really went camping. I’m proud of myself for acting like I didn’t care to go camping with them but I’m bothered he didn’t check in on me last night like he’s been doing in the past. If he went camping of course he wouldn’t but if he didn’t then I feel like he’s starting to not care. But, in the end, if I’m really detatching, I shouldn’t care either.
