He had an EA, Grace21. He feels a lot of shame about it he said and he said a while ago that he is messed up after his brother's passing although after that he says he's just fine now (thats a lie). He as well said that he wants to be great friends still, but I just don't know. Friends don't to the things he did to people they love.

I'm feeling tons better since my hormones calmed for the month, lol! I took my son to the playground and then saved a bunch of money on groceries so those made me happy. I do pretty well for the most part with being happier and moving forward but some days I just get in a funk and think back to happier times. I've been forcing myself to think about happier things when I catch myself starting to wonder about him and trying to analyze his behavior. It just drives me crazy to worry when I need to worry about me instead.

I'm so glad you are taking care of yourself and you're happier. Once I get my kiddo to bed later, I can read your threads to catch up. I have a break now while he is "fixing" his matchbox cars, lol!

Together for 13 years, married for 8.
H is 46
I'm 40
S is 6
Bombdrop in April 2018
Still in limbo as of 2019