Yep, DnJ is right. I am something like 7 or 8 years into this. He remained at home for the first 5. Fighting his compulsion to cheat and to go (ok, not fighting the whole time since he was having an affair for more than the last 3). Forget the notion of timelines. Forget trying to pin your hopes or your thoughts to some magical hour. Unless you want to take control yourself, but then they can still stall as Job says.
Take your eyes off her altogether. Focus on you and the kids, and your happiness. Live the life now you will live once you have closure, because as DnJ says, you won't get it from her and it will be a long time coming.
Who cares what your ex-wife thinks. I bet her life isn't all that either. You live your life. Focus on the stuff you control. Let go of the rest. L I V E. Don't wait.
