Gaining speed (pain18 DB story, Part V)

[lost8]

It stinks pain, I know the feeling very well. I remember the beginning, it hurt so bad when she didn't come home for weekends. I knew where she was, but I had to fight through it, I had to get out of the house and stay busy. Minutes at a time, hours at a time, days at a time I got better at concentrating on me and what I was doing.

I looked at it like a rubber band and I slowly kept stretching away from her, and yeah I would pull back, but the further I stretched out that rubber band each time, the less I would pull back as I tested the elasticity. My brain and heart learned that I don't want to feel this pain anymore. I can do this without her, I am a man and started acting like it.

All is not lost, kick yourself in the ars and get busy living.